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Try Again

Have you ever been through a pretty traumatic time?

I mean the possibilities are endless to list in examples so I won’t but I’m sure most of us have at one point or another.

Well, last week I encountered a ‘pretty traumatic’ situation with my mom- who just got cleared CANCER FREE on Friday 😁-

My mom and dad are usually cooped up in the house all day, every day due to the fact that they both have been in pain this past season..

Naturally, I decide to take my mom out on a field trip because she had finished her last round of chemo and was finally over the chemo sickness that lingers a while after its injected.

So I suggested we go to my favorite store: Marshall’sI know, the deals are amazing hence the favoritism

No big deal right? It’s just an hour tops at a retail store she will be fine, I didn’t even think about my safety being compromised cause I’m honkey dory majority of my days.

There we were, browsing around hunting for the best deals- I was looking for a bathing suit because I needed one for a trip I was taking and she was looking for some shorts.

We were near the back of the store steadily hunting when, this HUGE explosion sound went off and the entire building shook!!

My heart fell out my butt.

I quickly turned around to face the back of the store to find my mom.. to my surprise she was still pretty chill…

Me: Mom?! – semi cracky voice from slight adrenaline-

Mom: What was that? -not even flinching-

Me: I don’t know it scared the heck out of me though! 

Mom: ::Laughs:: I know.. -goes back to hunting for her shorts-

So in sight of my mom not tripping at all –that a probable earthquake just took place.. or Bane from Batman decided to set off bombs in good ol small town regions…. or T-rex happened to make a major comeback– I decided to equally not trip and allow my heart rate to slow down..

But, as I made my turn back towards the front of the store… all you-know-what broke loose..


Next thing I knew.. Employees were shouting, “EVERYONE EVACUATE THE BUILDING NOW!”

Oh, hello stronger burst of adrenaline!


My mom in true disappointed fashion: “DANG IT I JUST FOUND GOOD SHORTS!”

She started pushing her cart with her and as I mentioned to leave the dumb cart, she finally grabbed her purse and a dasani water bottle –that had yet to have been paid for 🙊-


Mind you.. my mom has not ran in awhile especially since her body has been in pain from stupid chemo.. so I was worried about her.. as I ran in front looking back every step almost..

We near the front of the store where the rest of the shoppers were stampeding the entrance when,


Now.. if you remember my theories mentioned above.. you can see I watch too many movies.. and my imagination is brilliant. So I had the serious audacity to say..


-I Know, I think that was my way of trying to make light of it or sike myself out aha.. didn’t work
I turned back around to my mother who was shouting, “WAIT! Wait..

I felt my eyes get HUGER -they’re already huge- as I seen panic try to overcome her. . panic attack central was about to make its debut.. but as she looked at me look at her in shock of what she was clearly going into.. .She snapped out of it.


She shook it off, maintained her peace and asked me for my car keys and mentioned we would be fine..

We made it outside to where there were tons of shoppers around us just looking for whatever it was, standing still like deers in headlights.. (Good ol nosey folk)

Some lady said, “Oh it’s just tires popping from it being too hot outside..”

At that moment… I felt myself loose in tension because it wasn’t a dinosaur, or the San Andreas fault line, and Bane went back to being a fictional character…

But then, I looked to my right and in front of the stores next door SMOKE took over the parking lot!

And things kicked back into overdrive as cars sped out and people were running to get into theirs.. We ran to my car-after almost getting ran over- and made it inside..

At this point my mind was like, “Hello.. PRAY.”

aha oh right, I forgot about that in the intense stampede!

I started praying as we backed out of the parking spot and started driving off to yet ANOTHER EXPLOSION!!

My heart must’ve thought this was a relay race because once it would slow down there it went again beating faster.

Driving further away, we scanned our rearview mirror and found black smoke coming from BEHIND MARSHALL’S.. the back of the store where we were no wonder why It felt so huge..

I didn’t care what it was at that point. All I could think about was we were just saved from harm, death even. It was clear by now this was a bomb, or explosion of some kind for sure.

I know we are supposed to be all fearless and brave, Jenny-usually it’s Johnny but we are girls– on the spot with quick impulses to pray..


I called my husband right after to let him know I just escaped death and to ask for prayer cause I was still shaking with adrenaline, but at the time it just felt like sheer fear.

I of course did not want to partner with fear cause it’s a lie and I didn’t want to allow it to keep me from ever going to my favorite store again..

That’s what trauma does, doesnt it?

It keeps you from wanting to be in a similar scenario again so you avoid it at all cost, to protect yourself.

Is it scary? YES.

Is it something you never want to go through again?

But, just because it was something that happened once, or twice or whatever number in your case doesn’t mean we stop functioning in that area.

If you have a friend that backstabs you, it doesn’t mean you stop having friends.

Your cat happens to die -I miss my Big Mama🐱- doesn’t mean you stay away from cats , or never get another..

You get your nerve drilled on from an inexperienced dentist.. SHOULDN’T keep you from going to the dentist ever again.. –True story happened to me, yet I really didn’t go back to the dentist for awhile aha.. I have now so yay for freedom.

Try again.

My mom -bless her brave heart- went BACK to Marshall’s THAT NIGHT because she wasn’t living without those darn shorts. Lol.

When she texted me asking if I wanted to go back to get the things I had in the basket, I thought she was kidding.

A picture of proof seconds later had my face literally like 😧

This woman had no fear. She didn’t care about what had just happened hours before, she tried again..she had a vision, a goal in mind-having a certain pair of shorts in your life is serious sometimes-

Her vision of owning those shorts helped her stand in the once epicenter of a huge fear scene.

Your vision will keep you going.

Vision for better frienships.
Vision for cuddly furry babies.
Vision for that million dollar smile. –literally about a million dollars Dentists don’t play

You have to try again.
And keep trying until you receive what you desire in life.

Obviously, we have been given the ability to approach Papa in these traumatic moments and take back our peace and reestablish where He was with us in that time because He promised to never leave us nor forsake us.. so we can breathe easier.

You are not your sole protector. Yes, you make decisions like: not choosing to cut a watermelon with your eyes closed.. but when it comes to being hidden from harm, it’s Papa who protects us.

He will cover you with His feathers, and under His wings you will find refuge;” Psalm 91:4

y’all know I am so about the Message version so here it is:

That’s right- He rescues you from hidden traps, shields you from deadly hazards. His huge outstretched arms protect you- under them you’re PERFECTLY SAFE.” Psalm 91:3-4

I felt a shift of mindsets with that one.. COME ON! haha

Darling, get back out there.

In the words of one of my favorite artists..🎶 “If at first you don’t succeed, dust yourself off and try again, you can dust it off and try again.. try again.” -Aaliyah

I believe in you.
Abba believes in you.
You should believe in you too.

walk with your head high loved one, for you can have confidence in knowing you are ‘perfectly safe.’

Papa, thank you for being our great protector. For keeping us out of harms way, sheltering us in storms of trauma, rescuing us from grips of fear. I pray we would operate in the courage and peace that has already been given to us, and to continue to try again. To walk in authority over fear. And gain more ground as we face similar situations with now more awareness of you and your peace. Thank you for loving us so well Abba, In Jesus name.. Amen.

Loving you,
Tanisha Poni 💜

Ps. It was an armor truck that exploded (the ones that pick up money from businesses) they said the engine blew up.. But, I think someone was tryin to get some monayy. 😄


Christmas presence

We are 3 days away from one of my favorite days of the year.. December 25th!

Christmas. 😍

Recently, I’ve been people watching (I know it’s weird, but don’t be actin like you don’t do it!) and people are SO on a hunt for the BEST gift. They are so desperate, they become stressed out! And don’t get me started on the ones who end up receiving unexpected early gifts.. They freak out wanting to impulse buy out of obligation. But is that what it’s all about? Presents?

Let’s get one thing clear right now before I continue.. I am a giver. I love to bless my loved ones with gifts. I also don’t mind receiving them either ha, but Christmas isn’t about presents under the tree…or a tree period.

I just want to remind you of one thing and then I’ll be done 😊

Christmas is about celebrating the greatest life we could’ve ever been graced with. Jesus. He became the gift of life for us then, so we could have the ability to be that gift now.

When we accepted what He did for us, and gave Him permission to live with us, we were given the same anointing that was on His life. Which enables us to be life givers.

Now, I’m not saying you can pile up some dirt and breathe life into it- that’s kinda Frankensteinish- I’m saying, we have the awesome opportunity to give LIFE away. Our life.

LIFE- time, love, attention, care, provision, advice, counsel, prayer, joy, hope, encouragement, etc.

That’s my life definition. To “give LIFE” away looks like spending time, loving on someone, giving your full attention, showing you care, providing when you see a need, offering advice and following through if it’s accepted, counseling through an issue- helping them walk through it-, simply praying for someone- really not just saying, “I’m praying!” Or “I’ll be praying!” And not actually do it-, releasing joy and hope into their current situations just by smiling and offering all these things to them along with encouragement to seal it all in.

We have been given such a gift in this life. We learn daily about the goodness of God and how wonderful it is to live knowing Jesus! We can’t keep all that to ourselves..

What are you saying Tanisha?

I’m saying let’s give LIFE away for Christmas. Let’s take a step back and actually get to know our loved ones. No matter how often you’re around them you can always learn something new.
Let’s put our phones down– Instagram can wait to see your beautiful face with your family later, it’s not going anywhere- and actually go further than the mundane conversation that goes like,  “I’ve missed you! How have you been ??”
I know it’s been awhile! I’ve been great how about you?!”
I’ve been great too!”
That’s awesome ::smile::”

And then you both look around and feel awkward so you grab the phone…. No! Stop it! Ask questions! Dig deeper! Have the obvious intention to spend time getting to know them. You may find out something isn’t so great and gold coated, simply because vulnerability comes out in safe places.

Family, friends-relationships- are so important. I recently got to be apart of something greater within my family’s lives and Papa showed off with just how great His love really is! My husband and I spent time no matter how late it was, to release LIFE over them. The reward is hearing the shift take place. The one where hopelessness and despair turn into hope and joy! It’s so worth it.

Don’t be concerned with the presents under the tree… Be concerned with the present in being PRESENT during this time.

After all, the giver is Papa, the wrapping is Jesus, and the gift is YOU.

Celebrate Jesus in honoring Him with your life and following His footsteps in giving life away. Christmas is brighter and less stressful when we focus on what truly matters and what it’s all about.

I’ll tell you a little secret: your presence will mean more to them than your sacrifice to wait in line to get that extra on sale present, or the last minute one. They won’t feel like you love them less.. If you intently spend your time with them. If they do…slap em. And reveal the truth that they are loved! (Hah ok don’t slap em.. That’s not helpful)

Christmas presence– the visible, tangible, occurring, awareness of love, life, joy, and every other good thing. 😉

Papa,I thank you for the reason behind this wonderful season. I thank you for your son Jesus. I thank you that His life was the greatest example of what you want our lives to look like. I thank you that you loved us so much to sacrifice your only son so that we could have a chance to live. Papa I pray that this Christmas we would fully grasp what it means to be present. To come into a greater understanding of the birth of Jesus and the beauty of His story. I pray that it would not only be in this season but it would overflow to our new year. Help us to give life away, give us words of encouragement, wisdom, and knowledge to be a priceless blessing to our loved ones. We ultimately want you to be exalted Papa so they may know you more. Thank you for choosing us for such a time as this. I’m overwhelmed. I love you, in Jesus name, amen.

“She will give birth to a son, and you are to give him the name Jesus, because he will save his people from their sins.” (Matthew 1:21)

Merry Christmas my beautiful gems, I hope it’s the best yet!

Loving you,
Tanisha Poni 💜

Smiling’s my favorite

I’m sorta sad Thanksgiving came and left too soon..all that food made me have to unbutton my pants to breathe! (I’m serious girls, I think I gained about ten pounds but goodness those candied yams were worth it!! 😋) BUT now it’s onto CHRISTMAS! 😍

I have no idea why it can’t be all holly jolly every other season but there’s just something about this time of year that really puts the sparkle in our eyes. ✨

Anyway, one of my favorite things to do during this time is watch Christmas movies! Ugh I’m a sucker for them. I’ll watch em all. One that gets played often is ELF with Will Farrell. (He nailed it by the way. Greatest elf ever. I’ll watch it a hundred thousand times I don’t care it’ll still be awesome)

I just like to smile, smiling’s my favorite!” -Buddy the Elf
This quote has become part of my speech because well, it truly does provoke a smile. And It also reminds me how powerful it is to do so.

Smile. 😃

Ok now.. Smile BIG. 😁

Your smile is powerful!

I realize I have mentioned the power in laughing before in my post “she laughs” but it’s so important to smile as well.

It even talks about it in:
Proverbs 15:13 “A happy heart makes the face cheerful, but heartache crushes the spirit.”


Proverbs 15:30 “A cheerful look brings joy to the heart, and good news gives health to the bones.”

A cheerful face or look = the presence of a smile. 😃

It’s funny because in the first verse it mentions that it starts from the inside first (a happy heart) and then produces the outside (cheerful face)

Then the second verse uses the reverse of it (outside effecting the inside)

So regardless which comes first that smile provokes your insides to be joyful! (Joyful insides I’m sure keep the doctor away.. Proverbs 17:22)

Ok wrapping it up…
My prescription for you:

•Take a smile break at least ten times a day.

•Make a list of things that bring that smile out.. And post pictures of those things up around you.. Or however you want to do it.

It may seem like the cliché post about being “happy go lucky” and you’re probably like “Whoop dee doo Tanisha this isn’t a big profound deal” (Seriously if you said that Im sad. Jk. 😄) but honestly we need it still. Daily.. (If we didn’t we’d all look like buddy the elf.)

Especially this time of year even though there’s Merriness galore, comparison tries to leak in and be a kill joy-Causing you to not smile where you’re at or with what you currently have-(But not on my watch!😉)

Now then beauty, keep your heart young with joy-put that smile on. You never know who’s going to be around who may need it more than you. 😊

Challenge: Give a smile to someone new every day as a countdown to the new year.. And don’t worry about the outcome.. Just do it to do it. Because smiling’s your favorite. 😁

Papa I pray you would bring the smiles out. The big smiles. The full teeth showing smiles. The bonafide, non forced smiles to release heaven into our daily tasks; and to create breakthrough in our own lives. Thank you for creating the smile, such a universal sign of happiness and ultimately love. Most of all thank you for your smile that permanently radiates over us. Love you Papa, in Jesus name Amen!

Loving you,
Tanisha Poni 💜

Ps. Don’t be giving that FLIRTY smile out girl.. Don’t get cray-hay-hayzyy!💁

Pss. Your smile is BEAUTIFUL. I don’t care if someone told you any different. They lied. So chuck that out and smile sweetie. 😘

Chin up buttercup

Beauties, we have entered into my favorite season of the year.. FALL! 😍

ONE of my favorite things (because there are plenty) about this season is the CHANGE that takes place.. The leaves don’t just transform in color, they fall. And the trees become bare, to prepare for new blossoms and growth to take place.

To some, leafless trees are ugly or scary because they’ve lost their color (and are usually in scary movie scenes to add to their discredit😑), but to me they’re most intriguing because I’m passionate about transformation and the process in the trees’ endurance during the cold season.

(Ok this isn’t a tree hugging post I assure you but I’m not knocking the idea! 😄 )

You and I are given the same exact opportunity to be these autumn trees. We get to allow certain things to transform within us and things to fall off to leave a place for new things to take root. (Healthy and greater things of course)

The problem with all this greatness is that many times these transformations look like trials. They may not feel good, might make you rethink your faith and not appear to mean well, but the good news is.. they can be celebrated!

I feel as though some of you have been going through a “trying” season where things left and right keep giving you a 1,2 combination (that’s some boxing lingo for ya) and you feel as though you’ve either missed it and made a bad decision, you’re losing hope, your joy is sapped, and you could probably have a major crying outburst at any given moment.. Well this is for you:


Have a giggle time out.. And then marvel at this gem of a scripture,

“Dear brothers and SISTERS, when troubles of any kind come your way, consider it an opportunity for great joy. For you know that when your faith is tested, your endurance has a chance to grow. So let it grow, for when your endurance is fully developed, you will be perfect (full grown) and complete (faultless), needing (lacking) nothing.” James 1:2-4

Did you read that?! This trying season is giving your endurance a chance to grow (just like leaves falling off the tree.. 🍃🍂) and the great promise in this truth is the fact that your endurance has potential to fully develop ANNNND you will be full grown needing NOTHING! 😍 That’s so encouraging! (So no more eating ice cream with a shovel, or chocolate for that matter unless it’s for fun of course😜)

Guess what? …

You’re EXACTLY where you need to be.
Trust Papa at His word, and take a moment to reflect
on all these left and right blows and allow yourself to put on Joy glasses to accept them as such.

Be honored beautiful one, He wants to take you deeper! 🙌

Let me wrap it up by praying for you,

Papa, I thank you for new seasons, new depth, and transformation. I thank you that in the so called troublesome times we get to have not only joy, but GREAT joy because it is propelling our spirit of endurance to grow and strengthen. Thank you for the clarity on being right where we are supposed to be and the peace that truth releases. I pray we would be full grown and lacking nothing at the end of it all, having enjoyed our process of blossoming with you. In Jesus’s name, Amen!


Loving you,

Tanisha Poni 💜

White butterfly kisses

Grab a cup of coffee or tea if you’re like me and have a seat cause I just want to share something significant with you today.. Just lady to lady.. To let you in the world of Tanisha for a few minutes.. Alrighty then let’s start!

There has been more than a handful of moments in my life where I needed that extra ounce of hope, encouragement, joy, love, or reassurance that everything was going to be ok.. (Because sometimes life has tough spots!) and in those moments I did what I knew to do..I cried out to Papa. Every single time, out of no where, a white butterfly would make its presentation in my view..it would dance around me for a bit and then flutter off. (😍) Now I know this may seem odd but I would cry, (yes, every time it happened) because I felt the intentionality of Papa’s heart for me in that instant. And everything I needed washed over me..

Now, these moments have continued to pop up in the various seasons of my beautiful life and I have begun to call them Kisses. Because I fully believe that’s what they are.

Kisses from Heaven.

You know that, “Stop and smell the roses..” saying?
it’s supposed to get us to.. well, stop and smell the roses.. instead of being absorbed by the million other things that tug at our attention during our daily lives. To take a moment and breathe. Right? Well although that’s true and great advice, to me its been given a whole new meaning..

Stop and smell the roses. To encounter the beauty they hold, the fragrance they leak, and the reason they exist in the first place.. to come into greater awareness of just how much our Creator loves us. Doesn’t it look more like a kiss to you now? I mean how romantic is that?! 😍

Roses have become cliché thanks to the use of them mostly being apology aids for our beloved men species..( sorry guys start asking the Holy Spirit for creativity in that area😄) But clear all that out to revive the purity in them.. It doesn’t just stop at roses anyway..

Roses, daisies, tulips, lilies, snapdragons, sunflowers, dandelions, autumn leaves (especially the heart shaped ones), twinkling stars, the first rain, the first snow, morning dew, sunrises, sunsets, ocean waves caressing the shore, the way the sun rays peek through anything they please, the wind as it wraps all around you.. Etc. It all reveals His glory..

Now before you think I’m getting all new agey and “one with the earth” on you, read the truth behind it..

“Ever since the creation of the world His eternal power and divine nature, invisible though they are, have been understood and seen through the things He has made. So they are without excuse.” Romans 1:20

Isn’t this amazing?!? Part of His divine nature is being a LOVER!

So Tanisha.. What are you saying?

Thank you for asking..hah ( I will get all over the place often so try to stay with me 😄 )

I’m saying don’t miss the kisses.
Pay attention.
Open your beautiful eyes and catch them.
(The kisses He sends you may not look like mine but they’re there I promise!)

Every time that white butterfly flutters by I imagine Papa blowing a kiss to me and that kiss taking off as that butterfly. And hence, “White Butterfly Kisses.”

Haha I can’t contain my heart even thinking about it! 💓

Ladies, I know the dreadfully misnamed “cuddle season” is approaching and all.. and some of you may be in your glorious single season (by the way, you better embrace it now lovely you only get one..and in a righteous way don’t be gettin cray-zy hah 😉) but, don’t think for a moment that you’re forgotten or give access to the lies of the ” I need a relationship” syndrome to entice you to “act now!” to get into a temporary thing. Allow the LOVER of your soul to love you! To romance you. To reveal just how much He wants you to be showered with His splendor. PERMANENTLY. Because you’re worth it to Him.

He can love you more in a moment, than any one could in a lifetime..😊 (if that didn’t make you feel all warm inside read it over!)

So amazing one, go take a walk.. quiet your mind.. be all there.. listen.. look.. take it all in. Oh, The kisses! 💗 I shall exit in song…

“… And heaven meets earth like a sloppy wet kiss.. And my heart turns violently inside of my chest.. I don’t have time to maintain these regrets when I think about the wayyyy… HE LOVES US..” (How He Loves Us- Kim Walker Smith) 😌

Loving you,

Tanisha Poni 💜

She laughs.

“…She laughs at what’s to come.” (Proverbs 31:25)

Laughter is more powerful than we may realize..
So let’s do an experiment right now.

I want you to think of a negative lie..Such as, “I’m not good enough.” Or “I’ll never have enough.” (Financially) etc.

Go ahead, really do this before you read on..

Do you feel that? The heart feels like someone just punched it in the stomach.. And the atmosphere around you might as well come with its own grey cloud.. Right? It just feels yucky.

Now I want you to laugh OUT LOUD at those lies (girl I do not care if you’re at work,school,in a meeting,etc. cause you should be paying attention at all those places and now you must look like the goofy girl but oh well..DO IT!) a genuine laugh, and envision the exact opposite (of the lies) and be opened to the truth… Keep laughing!!

More! Hahahahahahahahaha!!!!

Now how does THAT feel?!
Do you see how quickly your laughter not only shifted your heart’s place but the atmosphere is now beaming with light?!

Isn’t that a sweet experiment? You should do it more often especially when you’re feeling icky.

After all you know laughter is medicine to the soul right?
In Proverbs 17:22 it reads, “A JOYFUL heart is good medicine, but a crushed spirit dries up the bones.”

Joyful: feeling, expressing, or causing great pleasure and happiness.

I’m sorry but to me laughter is included in joyfulness..I can’t imagine a joyful person who doesn’t laugh!
So everything that a joyful heart carries is good medicine!

Isn’t that some good piece of news??
I know it is!

Now back to my first scripture..
SHE laughs” is a favorite of mine because it’s directed towards a woman. But it’s powerful because she’s not just randomly laughing she’s laughing at her future!

Can you just let that hit for a moment.. Why would a woman laugh at her future?

Because she knows WHO holds it.


Her laughter isn’t a forced act. It isn’t a nervous laugh. It’s a confident joyful response to whatever is going on around her or within her circumstances. She knows the outcome is great and victorious. To do anything else but laugh (rejoice) wouldn’t do it justice.

If you can’t find a reason to laugh, start with a smile. You can force that initial smile and look at it in the mirror and then smile harder, so hard that you end up laughing on account of how crazy you might look to someone who walks by you witnessing this act. 😂
Regardless if that happens or not here’s some hope..

Job 8:21 declares, “He will YET fill your mouth with laughter, and your lips with shouting.”

“Yet.” There’s your three letter word packed with encouragement for the week. 😉

Your FUTURE.. Is secure. “I know what I’m doing. I have it all planned out—plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you THE FUTURE YOU HOPE FOR.” (‭Jeremiah‬ ‭29‬:‭10-11‬ MSG)

The future you hope for… 😍 if that doesn’t inject a joyful response.. Read it until it does! 😄

So then my beautiful gem, L A U G H that confident laugh because these are your truths to keep..

And then pass it on: Get around a fellow beauty today who looks like she needs some extra UMPH and unleash that joy over her. You just might make a new friend! 😊

Loving you,
Tanisha Poni 💜

S.H.E paint night!

Last night (October 3rd) we had a S.H.E paint night, where each of the girls painted whatever was impressed on their heart to translate on their canvas. 10 girls showed up (which doubled from the first SHE rendezvous!) and got vulnerable enough to create, even those who’ve never painted before.

I spoke about creativity a tiny bit and how powerful it is. Especially since Papa (God) first showed us His creative side. There’s something so powerful in that truth alone and I’ve yet to gain all the revelation on it but still! Hah

Those girls paintings were crazy amazing. Yes. The ones who never painted.. Or said, ” I can’t do this..” Etc. the pictures they expressed on that canvas were totally Holy. Everyone got to share the purpose of their painting and it just released so much breakthrough in the atmosphere. It was definitely an awesome time together. Each one walked out with a smile on her face and a piece of prophetic art for their room to remember the night by.

I love this. Thank you Jesus!

– Tanisha Poni